requiem
the debut album by goodnight, Lucas
requiem is an ode to intuition, nature and source. it is a series of journal entries recorded throughout a year+-long process of pulling myself out of dissociation, dejection and hopelessness. processing and releasing pain and supplementing it with love, acceptance and optimism. and accepting the burden and risk that comes with choosing to live with your heart and spirit. i am a martyr to myself.
goodnight, rest in peace. here is your requiem.
tracklist
shine 0:00
yeller 1:00
faker 3:06
runner 5:45
death 7:50
loser 9:21
lament 11:47
requiem 12:49
savior 15:00
shins 17:36
begger 18:42
moat 21:04
pith 22:38
reverie 24:51
adorn 27:07
3 faker
keep on holding me back
pastor sees all my lies
i try to reach through the past
i get cold feet every time
i just couldn’t crack this one
oh i tried
i tried my best to behave at the time
i couldn’t play victim
so i lied
i trade resentment for shame, how you like
i feel your feet on my back
you point at me while i lie
shame on me, i’ve been bad
i can’t redeem for my crimes
i just couldn’t crack this one
oh i tried
i tried my best to behave at the time
i couldn’t play victim
so i lied
i trade resentment for shame, how you like
2 yeller
fell off all the way this time
you wouldn’t catch me that’s alright
you put me out
like an old stray
i fled the pound
cynical and somber ain’t well liked
so imma stay up past midnight
my lips slip secrets to my wallpaper allies
they’re my best friend i can keep talking all night
you put me out
like an old stray
i fled the pound
i think i’ve found
another way
don’t need you now
4 runner
feel like i’ve been walking in my sleep
i’m a creep
in time
they’ll find out my lil secret
i keep
do you like me enough
to hold me while i sleep
with you
i think they’re trying to get me
i’m a troop
on the loose
chew me up and spit me out
i’m useless
to you
5 death
you make me want to die
i hope you feel alright
i love the way you cry for me
but now i’m gone
6 loser
i’m gonna lose this one
but that’s what i’ll do for you
i walk towards the moon
see you at my funeral
my love
it’s okay
i love you
my love
it’s okay
i love you
i want the truth
up front
nauseous and beautiful
but that’s not for you
i know
so i’ll take the usual
my love
it’s okay
i love you
my love
it’s okay
i love you
7 lament
i hold you
can you stay
make me break
i see for the first time
it’s so obvious
far away
i’ll hold onto you
for today
8 requiem
i watched you cry
you held that on your own
my love come home
i swear i tried to stay afloat
my love take me home
do u love me
can i fade away soft
my instincts tether me to god
spirit like ripped jeans, denim well worn
is it ugly
should i shield you from the dark
do my eyes still shine the same
inside do you feel good
shame on me like a duvet
show me how to be real good
i can give while you take
if you’d like
you know
i know the way out
too cold
touching the pain
9 savior
sleep tight
lullaby
i don’t wanna ruin the mood
out of sight out of mind
weak spine
every time
always gonna keep my cool
i end up left behind
in my room
you bite me
i don’t move
im quiet too
im silent
don’t speak too soon
in my room
you bite me
i don’t move
im quiet too
im silent
don’t speak too soon
10 shins
you showed me love when i couldn’t always see it
i like to think of you when i can barely breathe
i only see the best reflect in memories
i release the rest, it makes it easier to sleep
i sleep alone, i press my chest against my knees
arms around my shins, i pretend you lay with me
these long days are weighing heavy on my feet
alone inside my skin, i miss yours inside my sheets
11 begger
get me out of this dress
this suit fits too tight on my chest
make me walk with my neck erect
in time i’ll hold back on my breath
who warned me
i look around for a friendly face
i got two strong feet
but these soles are wearing away
inside i know i’ll find it
on my way i hold my hope the same
i love the loss, it reminds me
i’m awake
i could cry any day now
who warned me
i look around for a friendly face
i got two strong feet
but these soles are wearing away
13 pith
love me, love me not
i’m soft, like a daisy
be guilty, be perfect
speak not what you think
how long will we watch
absorbed by the flames
i’m docile i’m patient
to the angst
you got me hiding from the fire
i take the blame
truth, love, peace
it was all a lie
i hate you
14 reverie
meet me down by the river
place your hands on my neck
let’s fill our lungs up with water
watch the seaweed reach through my chest
i breathe in the green
light leaves me i’m tossed into darkness
sink your teeth into me
death roll i go unconscious
dance with me for a bit
just take my hand, let’s get lost/sing a song
i breathe in the green
light leaves me i’m tossed into darkness
sink your teeth into me
death roll i go unconscious
15 adorn
i’m swollen
i’m starved
i held what i thought would live on
unholy
adorned
i know every dog that dies is my fault
i feel my head ascend
my feet lifting off the cement
that sinking deep in my chest
i know, i know what you’re after
it’s you
you
the truth
the big blue
it’s you
you
big blue
the truth
watch the music video for the title track, requiem:
